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i dont know what im doing...ahhhhh help me what is this shit all these options and colors...what is this blurp thing , what the fuck is blurp anyway. ok ready this is my definetion.... boooaidshfusfhliasghdajsbgasdbgdsgdvjasdbvadsbvadsbvhav. ok that was deff fun..lmao, im such a dork
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Feb. 23rd, 2005 @ 09:14 am homework scene one
Current Mood: amusedamused
Current Music: class
In the middle of october,in the streets of newyork city called stmarks and runs close to astroid place.the stores close together with closed sighns posted on its stained glass.the sun was just about setting, and the isolated streets, seemed to fit as good company for ones state of recollection.the leaves danced in the air. taking there stand in life, such a simple pleasure,and weightless effort is the life of a single autuam leaf. so much that one can envy.
blossom sat on thebrick steps of her front porch, talkinng to herself as she usually does siting poems in her head of which reamin unheard. she hears them laughing inside,bottles clanking and smoke escaping from the window.

jon: hey would u go to the store for me since your already outside, grab me something good and an ice tea from that sexy gas station.(he dropped the cherry of his stog on his faded jeans, and closed the door without an answer from me.) ....not done
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Feb. 1st, 2005 @ 06:28 pm death bloomz
Current Mood: creativecreative
Current Music: simpsons
the room would look smaller and my imperfections seemed to be the center of attention, it was all i can concentrate on. the little blemish on my cheek or the fact that one of my eyes were smaller then the other, at this point of my high trivial ideas and past experiances would pace unrytmaticaly in my head, not certain on what exactly i was thinking about i got interupted by his voice.he simply asked me what i thinking about and i lied, i told him i didnt want to talk about it... i really didnt though, its as if somewhere in between my mental trip i had fallen into an empty hole, alone and uncapable of lifting myself out. when i got home that night i paced on my bed, listening to them argue.after an hour or two i fell asleep.
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Jan. 23rd, 2005 @ 01:58 pm sunday snow
Current Mood: exanimateexanimate
Current Music: thrice to awake and vendge the dead
i cant remember the last time it snowed this much,24inches in 2 days,hopefully school is caceled tommorow, midterms are almost over....i had a great freckin weekend...remember the long night and sunny day...
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Jan. 18th, 2005 @ 09:25 am consumed by the percentage...........of fire water
Current Mood: amusedamused
this week has been pretty crazy..ive been dying to do something naughty..A.K.A (CANDY)i want to experiance anouther E true hollywood story, blah balh crazy to be continued gots to go.....
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Dec. 20th, 2004 @ 01:48 pm dead air
i like to watch, i like to be seen , i love to listen, but i rather talk...i sit in this dead air breathing in what i exhaled, looking straight into the smoke, watch your shadow tip and toe slowly following the unknown.eyes are shut widely open u pace yourself so beatifully.your words are muttered so cleary and i still dont have the answers to the questions that ill never ask. shhhhh dont break the silence im enjoying this uncomfortable state,turn your head dont look this way, doont destroy this perfect dissiption let me live up this lie. drive where ever the road will take.
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Dec. 15th, 2004 @ 11:41 am today and yesterday(thoughts id rather not bottle)
Current Mood: calmcalm
Current Music: the beatles...(oo i get bye with alittle help from my freind
the worst is when u watch it all fall apart and u know u cant do anything about it. know yourself and those around, dont be invisiable in your world, that world u created can easily crash, life is hard but whats even harder is expectations and what u have to live up to....dont fall tto hard..ouchieee
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Dec. 5th, 2004 @ 01:11 pm christmas in hill bill
Current Mood: bitchybitchy
Current Music: the echo of the silence pierces my drums
looking for food through a tumbleweed town,we stop for directions from a local clown....were is this winding road to take us next, perhaps the muddy cup or or the nearest rest...early bird sing while others snore ....dreaming a state of what the future holds while he gets up and scrathes his ass, thinkin which stattion hell stop for gas. while inside we sit out from the cold, inside she rest while on the bowl.how i long to be anywhere but here, this naked tree still waves so gently as if to comfort me,we wait with anticipation on this handi cap lot.we wait with heavy lids, , early birds sing while, while hound dogs sleep, an extra hour would have been sweet.and as the minutes turn into hours, the fogged window that i ruined will forever hold my name, forever inprinted on the transparent glass, the solid which restrains us from the world, and this hill billy christmas show..and i will let you ...piece
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Nov. 12th, 2004 @ 09:29 am FRIDAY
Current Mood: annoyedannoyed
today i party/drink/sleep......finally
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Nov. 9th, 2004 @ 02:58 pm karens sight
Current Mood: calmcalm
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Nov. 9th, 2004 @ 07:24 am the bitter end
Current Mood: giddygiddy
fun ....fun..
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Nov. 8th, 2004 @ 09:01 am back to reality
Current Mood: curiouscurious
Current Music: pink floyd
i guess i can finnally say that im happy, these past few months have been crazy but in the long run i feel like a diffrent person,hopefully for the better, i feel as if ive lived my life and now ive gone back to relive it or witness my mistakes and learn from them. idk maybe its the day, the mood, the whole "this is only one year of my whole life thing" but im growing really comfortable in my state, im feeling safe in my skin.......hehe...good vibes
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Oct. 30th, 2004 @ 05:05 pm showcase
Current Mood: enthralledenthralled
Current Music: greenday
showcase is this wednesday...the mayor will be there along with many of my teachers and friends, im scerdy...its gonna be crazy ....but fun .amanda ill send a video , we are recording it ..................(going to see greenday and sugarcult in 2 hours ...fun FUn)
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Oct. 18th, 2004 @ 09:05 am FRIGHT FEST
Current Mood: bouncybouncy
Current Music: 18 visions (obsession)
i went to six flags yesterday, it was soooo crazy...NITRO was amazing, the terror trail was spooky. we lost our patience to wait in line for the haunted hay ride, but we will be back, amanda remember last year.....we had fun that day... i cant wait for halloween
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Oct. 14th, 2004 @ 09:06 am we WON
Current Mood: accomplishedaccomplished
we finnally won our first game yesterday, against meriss, i have no idea how you spell it, but we kicked ass(not really) the score was 3-0, so that means we get our jackets. we have our game against emerson on friday ,hopefully we wont get defeated in our own feild......yea any ways i gotta go ...piece
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Oct. 8th, 2004 @ 01:06 pm subjectless
Current Mood: hungryhungry
Current Music: coaches obnoxious voice
chillen in the media center,throwing a surprise party for geraldine.....im sooooooooo HUNGRY FEED MEEEEEEE. i want to go home and eat
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Oct. 8th, 2004 @ 09:02 am LETTERS FROM EARTH
Im certainley no longer in kingdom come.No longer in heaven, this change of presence is closing in on me.The purity and taken for granted peace , will be missed.My eyes have grown irratated from the rubbing of my disbelief, and the emptiness in me echoes in a walless world. NO limits , No remorse,no love, is this what they call life, is this what u call living.This burden on my back will become to heavy for me to hold,and my heart fogets to beat.Aren't you tired of being weak, such rage that you can scream all the stars right out of the sky, after all these images of pain iv've grown weary in my place, ive grown numb in my state, and it feels almost a sin to want to return home, God help me i use to be golden , a saint in my time of sorrow, but the turning came, and i kissed it all away. they live to love, to burn, to die.I will exhale and exist with a broken spirit. Gone are the tender whispers in my ear, the blissfull voices the angels, with all this anger there is no time to stop and grasp something i once new.We dont know untill we witness for what is aimagination now, ....NOT DONE
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Oct. 6th, 2004 @ 09:04 am the blue of my oblivion
Current Mood: gloomygloomy
Current Music: fiona apple (get gone)
How many times can it escalate
Till it elevates to a place I can't breathe?
And I must decide, if you must deride
That I'm much obliged to up and go
I'll idealize, then realize that it's no
Sacrifice, because the price is paid, and
There's nothing left to grieve

i feel stuck today .....
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Oct. 5th, 2004 @ 09:10 am subjectless
Current Mood: curiouscurious
cant catch the quickness of the motion : immitate what you believe ...gesture out your version of how it all should really be. but u know more then u percieve to show, faking perfection is a knobless door, forcing a laugh in this walless world. blinking a close your eyes, holding in more then u can soak. i was watching him from a far breathing so heavy , i can see his chest move from where i sit , he knows nothing of what ive done....a sick /healthy pleasure ....the tears that have baracaded me for so long flooded out of me faster then i can catch my grip and i unwillingly caught my trip and drove i of a cliff.....down i saw it go .....up up my spirit goes.... -tai
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Sep. 28th, 2004 @ 09:23 am subjectless
Current Mood: mischievousmischievous
Current Music: its pouring
yea we lost yesterdays game...(sad face) 0-6, but it was mad fun though so fuck it.... manda i miss u .
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Sep. 27th, 2004 @ 09:17 am subjectless
Current Mood: sicksick
Current Music: sound of printers
todays my first game, against north bergen, we are so kicking there ass. i hope i dont get my glasses knocked of my face ...o boy
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